Having lived with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome for the past 8 years, this is a question that I’ve pondered a lot. In the first few years of my illness I had several friends tell me that God didn’t want me sick, and if I had enough faith, he would heal me.
God didn’t heal me, and it wasn’t because I didn’t have enough faith. It was because He had something greater in store for me, though it took me a lot of years to discover it.
This discovery is something that, in my humanity, I am still getting my head around, though I believe it to be true: There is a much greater miracle than healing.
I was struck by Jesus’ words to a paralysed man: “For which is easier, to say, ‘Your sins are forgiven,’ or to say, ‘Rise and walk’?” This is a rhetorical question with a clear answer. It is much harder to forgive sins, than to make a lame man walk. Jesus’ ability to forgive us, taking us from death to life, is an infinitely greater miracle that healing.
This is a miracle I have received, and one that I continue to receive. God has been changing my heart about suffering. He is showing me that I can have joy and contentment in the midst of it. This change of heart should not be taken lightly. It is a miracle. And one that I would argue is as great, if not greater than healing.