I found myself asking the same question. When I stray far from God, what fault is it that I find in Him?
Is it that he’s not exciting enough? – No, He soars on the wings of the wind and consuming fire comes from his mouth.
Is it that He’s not fulfilling enough? – No, He fills the deepest parts of my soul and brings me peace.
Is it that He’s not near enough? – No, He is in me and with me during every second of the day.
I can come to only one conclusion: He is not sinful enough.
His heart does not desire what mine does. My heart desires things that He hates, and I turn my back on Him in order to pursue them.
So what charge can I hold against my God? Only this: that He is good, and my flesh revolts against it.