There’s something I want. I don’t need it, but the more I think about having it, the more I want it. It costs a lot of money, but last night, it looked like God was going to let me have it. It looked like I was going to be blessed with a really good deal, and like the spoilt child who suddenly finds a lot of love in their hearts for their parents when they’re getting what they want, I found it easy to praise God for His goodness to me.
Suddenly life was looking good. I felt myself basking in God’s favour. I saw God blessing me even though I didn’t deserve it.
And then this morning, it was all gone, and sadly so was my joy; and tragically so was my trust in God’s goodness.
It reminds me of this quote from the funny clip below by Louis CK, which is sadly far too relevant for my generation: ‘How quickly the world owes us something we knew existed only 10 seconds ago.’
How quickly my hope in God becomes dependent on Him doing things my way.
How quickly I allow material goods to have a defining influence on my happiness.
God has blessed me abundantly. But sometimes I don’t get what I want, even when it does seem that He has orchestrated all the stars to align to give it to me. How long will I allow my relationship with him to be dependent on His gifts to me?
sarsrose 
Love you Sarah. Your posts are always such an encouragement to me. I am disappointed for you in this circumstance, but I praise the Lord that you have responded to your own disappointment in such a humble and God honouring way. You’re a blessing xx
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